So, wow... I have never talked to anybody about this before.
I was never a girly girl. I had a guy best friend growing up. I have always liked soft guys.
Since I was a teenager, I have usually found typical women, well... annoying. Which I feel really bad about, because it sounds small-minded and mean. But typical women have always felt like a club to which I will never belong.
I just... I just want so bad to be close to a guy who wants to feel pretty.